My Father In Reflection



My Father In Reflection

03/07/1938 – 18/10/2018

A change to the series title – why?

Because through the reading of his written words l have come to the realisation that l did know my father, all too well. That the reality of it was simple, yes he was a chameleon to everyone including himself. He awarded you with the skin that you wished to see, the colour that you liked best or in reflection of that – the colours he believed you wanted to see most. The more ‘taken in you became with his performace’ the more he portrayed that character to you, so that in the end you would not doubt nor ever doubt that is who he was.

But there was another side to my Father, and that was the side of those who knew the real him – not the pretend version for benefit of friends, acquaintances or colleagues – but the real dark side of him.

This series is about my Father, a man l tried to love as best as l knew how, and having not been anyone else’s Son l had very few comparisons to landmark myself against. With his written words, stories and tales and memoirs l am able to reflect back on not just my life or his life, but our lives together.

Someone recently remarked was this catharsis process aiding me? I don’t know if l would call it catharsis as such, l tend to regard it as a purging. I need to read my Father’s writing for me and in so doing complete the final walk of a journey l have trekked for a good many years. I had thought l would find some answers to questions l had burning holes in my heart and head for years, and that has not yet happened, nor do l believe it ever will. Those answers travelled to the grave with him, and maybe – well maybe that is for the best.

The series is a journey of reflection and a final honour to laying the ghosts and demons that have been with me since l was five. It’s that simple.

Rory Matier


My Father In Reflection



Writing as a form of Suicide 2002

Writing Class 2003

The St Valentine’s Day Messy Cure 2003

Jaguar: A Love Requited 2004

An Act of Vandalism 1985/2005

Tyger Tyger Burning Bright 2005

The Road to Hell 2005

Toys 2005

Masks 2005

A Book Is Not Just For Christmas But For Life 2005

Belated Greetings 2006

A Working Man In My Prime 2006

Where Would I Be Now? 2006

Breathless 1987/2007

Enquiring Mind or Difficult Bastard? 2007

Forests of the Night 2007

And The Winner Is 2010

The Collector 2012

The Herald of Spring 2013

The Deepest Cut 1969/2014

The Toy Fair 2014

The Witness 1962/2015

Bora Da To You Too 1977/2015

Letting Go 2017

A Cat’s Life 2017

Buried Treasure 2017


On Writing Fiction Shorts

Two of a Kind

The Old Photograph Album

Awaiting Your Turn

The English Garden


Viewed from Afar

The Milkman

A Walk in the Autumn

Case 743/02 LAPD – The Diary, the Dachshund and the Yacht


On Writing Historical



The Tunnel

Brave Men’s Blood

Good Day To Bury Bad News


On Writing Biographical

Danny Boy

The Vow

The Ashes 2003

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