|Originally Titled – Socks Rock But Shoes Don’t!|
Originally Written April 2016
Published to The Tee Shirt Blogger – November 2017
Transferred to A Guy Called Bloke May 2018
Last time Reblogged May 2019
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It’s funny how we change as people isn’t it?
They say – who is They – you ask?
Well, the THEY’s in this world, or the Greys as l sometimes call Them, and l don’t mean like the little grey green people from outer space [although close], but those [also known as They] who seemingly deem what is normal society, again we ask for Them [also known as Those and They] to define normal, alas, seemingly they cannot. However, this doesn’t stop, They, Those or Them from still dictating what is supposed to be in accordance to Their [aka Those, They, Them] eyes.
But we do change and trust me when l say l have been non-stop changing since l first penned this article way back in 2016 – five years of continuous change and for me as an Aspie, that has seen and witnessed some real doozies! Most of the biggest changes were performed on the last 18 months especially – l have both surprised myself and surpassed milestones of personal achievements of mental yoga with these changes.
When l sat down five years ago and decided to call this article Socks Rock, Shoes Don’t l was a very different person to the person who sits here typing the revision article slightly baffled as to what this post was actually about .. yes of course l am kidding, but in those five years my body has changed considerably, my mind has changed also of course, it has become more experienced to changes and perhaps a little wiser … but l was looking at this article and thinking – Is this still you pal?
The design l originally was referring to was a design that enjoyed a short life as a design on display for general public, but l only ever sold three in the design itself – it was viewed however 134 times according to my Redbubble statistics dashboard, but only three people decided to make the financial decision to purchase it. it was never bought in a tee shirt style, only as a sticker.
It launched as a design in May 2016, but was taken off by October 2016, almost five years ago today. The design l refer to you can see below …
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The design represented hypersensitivity, of which l was an acute sufferer with five years plus ago. The title came from the fact that l detested wearing shoes and preferred wearing socks only. I found the restrictions of footwear to be almost painful. Today, thankfully l no longer have that problem – but l still prefer to walk around in socks mostly BUT, l still have issues walking barefoot.
I still can’t walk barefoot on and in certain conditions – so scrap linoleum, wooden and tiled floors – still can’t do it and if l must, l try NOT to have my bare feet on those surfaces for too long. I still struggle to walk barefoot on wet grass, but l can now walk on dry soft grass – l can’t walk in sloppy mud barefoot and get awkward if l have to wear walking boots in the stuff as well. Irrelevant that walking boots are designed to walk on an assortment of terrains – BUT l am better now than l was, and l can now wear my walking boots in earthen natural floors as in if l am walking in a wood or on dirt [provided it is dry]. [But not wet and not sloppy!] If there is sloppy and slippy mud, it can only be Wellington Boots! Sadly, some things never change, but l am getting better!
For a man today who works with compost and worm farms, you might be surprised to read that l still have considerable issues with certain materials and substances on my hands and inbetween my fingers … they can freak me out. My hypersensitivity to certain things at times is off the scales and then with other things, or things that many would think would be an issue l have no troubles with what so ever. A strange fact is l MUST wear gloves at all times, because l cannot under any circumstances have dirt on my hands – it just freaks me out – it’s not like it has never happened, for it has, but l can count the times l have had dirt on my hands as an aware adult to this problem and whilst the two thumbs are down, not all 8 fingers are!
My fingers are incredibly sensitive to certain things and the strange thing with that is, women l used to date used to love my feather like touch delivered with my finger tips, but l can’t stand that kind of sensitivity of my own skin.
The sensation for me is almost earth shattering and painful, to me soft touch or any type of acute hypersensitivity is like having broken glass and hot sharp knives rubbed over my skin, it is really quite terrible and yet my touch was described once as feathery air – go figure! I love touching silky things, skin was also one of my favourite ‘things’ to touch, my fingers adore water and feeling water on my finger tips can at times arouse me … it takes all sorts, you know!
Backaways when younger, my mind used to trip the light fantastic on a regular basis, my brain bounced off the sides of my head all day to loud noises, bright colours, strange sights in a good and bad way pending what was going on at the time … thankfully as l have aged, life is now marginally easier but to a degree only, for there are also huge negatives – an example of the negative is that some days l can’t for instance listen to loud music or sometimes any music whatever the decible range for longer than 30 seconds even if background because it can literally fry my brain and l do find this very sad indeed as l love music!!
Some of you may recall, that l used to write blog posts with Scrappy in the office and we were listening to heavy metal and rave, but now that music and the vibrations of that for too long burns my brain – so l don’t listen to music that much anymore. Short bursts only – although there is another reason and that is because the moment music starts – any music – strange things start to happen with my brain again – l see colours and shapes and numbers and patterns and whilst this is NOT new as an experience, years ago when younger it used to help me create, these days, it is like my head has walked into a minefield of cacophonous misadventure and it feels to me like someone is finger nailing the chalk board!!
Music used to be a switch off to the world downtime, now music has become an enemy!
Years ago, clothing was a major problem for me, everything scratched – the secret to success for me was to mostly buy second hand clothing so l could benefit from the worn feeling – years later thankfully l no longer have that problem. Now, it is mostly certain styles l can’t stand being on my skin – if it is too close and if it is too baggy – so, like the Three bears Porridge – my clothing has to be just right – not skin tight and not too baggy or loose fitting, but a little above regular.
I found that in order to find footwear easier, the answer was to buy one size bigger – so whereas l am a natural 8 which l think is an American 8.5 and a European 41, l now buy a 42 or a 9. With tops as in tee shirts and sweaters etc, l buy a large as opposed to my medium and trousers l buy a 34 as opposed to a 33. It awards me a just right snug fitting.
But l can now tolerate clothing labels which is quite exciting in my world and l no longer feel compelled to become the hulk and rip and tear off an offending tee shirt as l used to do!
Clothing aside there are still certain environmental factors l can’t abide for too long and as said, somethings never change or as l like to say at times, once a leopard always a leopard as in you can’t change the spots, but you will get older. There are some things l steer well clear of to deliberately avoid over sensitivity issues occurring.
[Even my Fitbit on my wrist risks being torn off and stamped on, because it can cause friction at times and it takes a lot of patience on my part to get the fitting just right.]
I have my limits and boundaries still – l avoid crowds, l avoid loud noisy places and for the better part l actually tend to still avoid people as a whole – noisy nosey and smelly things that they are!
So, am l the same person that originally wrote this article?
Yes of course!
But and it is a big – BUT out of 10 how close am l and am l still spot to spot so to speak in feline talk?
Well not exactly no, but as far as the 2021 leopard goes in comparison to the 2016 leopard – l am wiser and more savvy to who l am and more controlled and experienced and more motivated and now, more, much more learned to my Asperger’s or autism – so l guess Negative wise on hypersensitivity about 60% or 6/10 but on the Positive side l am closer to 100% or 10/10 – l am just now more understanding and accepting of my limitations. This makes my life way more exciting in a way, a special way and thankfully no longer as challenging.
Is there a design today in the collection that fits these feelings more appropriately? Well not as in soul defining perhaps – but l have always rather liked this one below – which is no longer in the sales collection – but might make a comeback.
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