Are You Ready For Christmas Or Just Not Bothering?
This year for me will be very different and l know for many of you also will be the same. Sadly this year has taken its toll on many people, many families, grandparents, parents and friends alike – so l am not alone in this. I am luckier in some respects than many others l guess – in so far as l am not that Christmas orientated – so spending the ‘2’ days alone will be no different to me than spending all the days alone since l moved into Willow.
It’s the memories of last year that maybe pain me more, last Christmas l spent with Suze and Scrappy, whilst l knew it was the last one l would ever spend with Scrappy, l didn’t know that this Christmas l would not be sharing it with Suze.
Suze is normally very family orienated and very geared for Christmas, she loves being with family and friends and yet this Christmas she is spending it with friends of hers that don’t celebrate Christmas not through religious beliefs but because they don’t worry about all the fuss. But then, this year Suze is not Christmas minded.
Even as l type this, Suze is sitting in the Vulnerable Waiting Ward of Ashford A&E due to problems arising from the stomach PEG. So for the first time in all her years of loving this period of time .. she doesn’t want to know about it. I’ll not see her either till sometime in the New Year when l can give her some presents l have for her.
It’s a shame, because Suze loved decorating the house, and it was lovely to see once done, it was lovely to see the three stockings up last year, and just writing that and it pains me so very much, thinking for the first time in 16 years, l shall not be spending my time with any furry companions. I can’t believe how fast and slow at the same time this year has gone. Scrappy passed on the 12th January, and that is now nearly a year and so very much has happened in this year to date already – not all great, fine nor dandy.
I don’t have any decorations up and yet they are all here in storage at the house, as l had the room for them. I haven’t received any cards yet – l should imagine the two l do receive will be from Suze and my Mother, which reminds me, l must also sort those out.
It’s only two days of the year and yet the whole world goes crazy – whilst l know it’s Christmas, to me it’s just another day – but l forget that world views it differently – and so today after casually sauntering around, filling the bird feeders, doing some weeding, pottering about, sorting bins out, l checked my cupboards and saw that l needed a few basics. So l logged into my shopper account and discovered ………………… no slots!! Till the 27th!!
Was my immediate thought, so l logged back out, then back in and l must have been in the interim period of them changing it online as suddenly there were some slots available and l grabbed one for tomorrow 12 – 1. I don’t need a lot, but l had forgotten that it was Christmas week … it’s all good now as l placed an order.
But it’s just 2 days – unless l drop dead between now and the 24th – the 25th and 26th will pass me by like today and tomorrow will, just another 2 days … l am ready for Christmas but just not bothering, how about you – what are your plans?
So, are you ready or just not bothering?
Let me know below.