No Fun Pun For Pain The Sequel
I stupidly thought last week l had battled the abscess and won, and yet l still failed to manage to get hold of my dentists all week. I tried the emergency number this morning for the NHS – but they only operate from Monday to Friday and if a problem arises over the weekend you are to go to casuality where you will probably spend anything upwards of 8 hours in Canterbury hospital waiting to be seen on a Saturday! I have no tolerance for that and am currently like a bear with a sore head.
The pain is incredibly intense, thrice what is was last week and l now have a major swelling on the inside of my upper front gum – the abscess itself is stretching from the top right of my mouth to just below my nose and is in the nasal cavity which induces a secondary pain with my nostril on the right side and is making its way up to the my right eye via the nasal duct, but is also fast spreading across the top of my gum on the left side.
The tablets l am taking are not even cutting close to shaving some of the pain down. Ibuprofen is a tablet that is supposed to calm down inflammation and can’t cope, solpadeine is for intense pain and is not helping and paracetamol is also failing to tackle the issue. I am hoping l can get to Monday and am now desperate to get hold of a bloody dentist who will prescribe me anti-biotics – because l can no longer cope without them.
If l am even luckier, they might suggest l come in for an emergency appointment and then they see that my mouth is really in serious trouble and so am l. This whole tooth thing is knocking me for six physically and mentally, never mind emotionally and motivationally. I just want to curl up and go to bed and hibernate till Monday morning, but that doesn’t solve anything – but l’ll not deny it is really slowing me down.
Making matters worse is l am having a fairly shitty week – from aggressive tooth pain to my shower taking its bloody time to get fixed and all going well, it will be fixed by this Friday coming, 2 effing months after it broke!! But l miss so terribly being able to seek some comfort from just standing under a hot shower because that does wonders for a person.
This country has got to start sorting out things properly – many complain about the pandemic and yet equally as many use the pandemic to their own advantage and all the pandemic is really doing is displaying how utterly damaged all the systems are in this country through budget cuts over the years – the United Kingdom is totally broken!!
I have managed to do most of my exercise – well walking wise, yesterday was the first time l had no zest for indoor cycling and l am not sure if l can today or even tonight. I exercise to try and get my focus off the pain, but the pain is way worse that it was this time last week.
Finishing off my week, is l had to make a really important social and moral decision this week with regards something l have been involved with for 6 years of my life. I ‘ll not bore readers with details, because it could be quite boring to many … but l came across an issue that my Aspgerian code of conduct couldn’t accept because it was technically wrong. It is so inconsequental to so many people – but l can be a pedant when l know l am right … but it also means that those many others will not see me as being right but as being petty It isn’t petty but it was in my eyes important.
In order to show my views of opposition, l stepped away from an organisation l have been with since 2014 – l am not missed – already it means nothing – but as l stepped away l saw how much the organisation had changed since 2014 – how the caring people had changed, how socialness has changed and how so very disposable people have become..
Stepping away was the right thing to do, l wasn’t wrong, l was correct even if others don’t view it that way – but it still saddened me – that l wasn’t even missed – and yet NOT, because this simply proved my point about the socialness of the organisation.
I am getting very, very tired of and with people.
So, in all it’s not really been the best week.
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