Plenty for Twenty In The Wind For Sure…
Time is so strange, have you noticed the shifts in time in the last few months? Of course l know for the last six weeks more or less time has been different around the world and yet we have all shared something together whether we wanted to or not.
I was thinking only last night about how at the start of this year things looked already different and yet here l am five months on and things are not just different but profoundly different!
On January 12th Scrappy was put to sleep and that alone as a distinct change was horrible and the knock on effects of that are still being felt today. Tomorrow is 109 days since the 12th and YES l do look at it like that as well as in weeks it’s 15 weeks – where has that time gone to?
Then l think to the horrors of what became known as Black Summer for Australia – the very sad tidings of their bushfire season for 2019/2020 and how l wept at that. I wept for Scrappy, l wept for Australian losses. I didn’t weep for the pandemic and l haven’t cried yet with regards Suze and l. I don’t think l will.
Perhaps because l am not looking at our parting as the end but as a brand new start.
Whilst l didn’t see this episode coming l did. I just didn’t forecast the pandemic lockdown – but l sort of sadly knew that come the death of Scrappy. Changes would be in the winds. That didn’t disappoint me and l think that’s why l am not crying.
I have spoken with Suze this week long and hard and we have agreed that we will always be friends, but as a couple involved actively in a relationship – there’s a good chance that’s not going to work. This time next year things will be very different for both of us … on all levels.
We will still see each other just will not live under the same roof, and today we agreed that we would set ourselves a year, 12 months from today more or less a target where upon we would more than likely be parting .. but in order to get there comfortably in so far as new renting, job and income security we would be working together to achieve that.
The one thing that Suze and l do have and that has always been very strong is friendship – we are both mates to each other, we still love each other very much, but we realised that both os us, want different things in life. We are there for each other as support though. These plans may change … but truthfully … l am really thrilled for Suzanne and her wanting to explore more in life.
There will be a few changes in the way l blog … l will still have a blog, but things l have been working on for future will now become part of daily blog life . Of course l will write about it all in due course … but this is/was/is a heads up to my readership to say that there are changes in the wind which are starting from this weekend.
It is also a big thank you to my close friends – thanks for the support folks – genuinely and always appreciate it.
Thanks for reading – Rory