Don’t beat yourself up about it .. ?
Do you think that we are ourselves our biggest enemies at times? That no one can do more damage to us, than us or we and we, or even you and you, me and me! That we are the biggest bane to our own existence at times?
Have you ever sat down and thought about this? How much you bully yourself? How much you put yourself down and so on … have you ever thought about that?
Sometimes l receive compliments from people and they astound me because l think – ‘who are you referring to? Because that’s not me! You shouldn’t be complimenting me because l am terrible! I can not do anything right, so l am not worthy of your praise!
Many a time l am guilty as hell for negatively smacking myself up – you know? Putting myself down, berating my abilities and so on … that If l was to EVER do this to another living person l could be arrested for verbal assault! It’s not nice stuff we use against ourselves when we are bullying ourselves you know. I call myself all the names under the sun and worse! I turn myself inside out at times in the moment when l am telling myself off so badly that l wonder how l get out of bed some days as l am that bad as a person??
There are many reasons why we do this to ourselves – l have done it to myself many times, but l have to take it on the chin and then get on with it …. right?? Or is that wrong? In so far as l shouldn’t be doing that to myself anyway and that l am a ‘good person’ who is worthy of all the praise l receive?
We usually do this to ourselves because in our past history we have failed, or been referred to as a failure, and it has scarred us to a certain degree, it routinalises the negativity and makes it alright for us to process despite the knowledge that it is wrong. We know we are bullying ourselves and we tell ourselves to stop … and yet we still perform this and actions like them?
In the last year, l have been working on myself on all sorts of platforms, phases and levels to break the habit of negative bitch slapping my own arse! It’s not easy. My father, mother, parents combined, siblings and the list is quite long from my long ago yesterday years of people who have bruised me along the way to my short ago yesterdays to as little at five years ago who felt nothing at belittling and berating my ability to live life or just be me!
None of US most assuredly should bully ourselves, life is just way too short for that crap and bullshit! We are all guilty, all of us, even those who say they don’t do it to themselves – because they do – we all do! The simpler fact is we all need to learn the ability of ‘self love’ and rid ourselves of the negativity of ‘self hate’.
So simply put as a question, as this is a topic all by itself, and will be discussed in more details soon enough …
Are you guilty of being your own bully and if so, what do you beat yourself up over and about? Additionally, what do you do to promote your own self love?
Let me know below in the comments section, but also let me know if you might like to take part in a guest writer capacity for a new series l have planned in for later this year on a host of topical subjects.