The NOT so sudden realisation!
I have been optimistic, but there is something stronger than optimism – it is known as reality! So now l am again being realistic. In September of last year a steroid injection failed to achieve results as my body rejected the approach. I was doubtful about anything further on that level, but the optimist in me wanted to believe … l couldn’t be anymore of an optimist, however l am now firmly of the belief that the over optimist is actually the fool.
Therefore the conclusion is YES l knew alternative methods had to be approached – apparently, but l KNEW deep down there was a strong possibility of further rejection.
The surgeon said if l didn’t feel immediate relief in the first ten days, and his words resonate with me, because the physiotherapsit said back in September that if l didn’t feel immediate relief in the first ten days then the result is no different to all these months later.
If you fail to feel any significant and immediate relief in the first ten days then ultimately your body has rejected that approach and we will have to look at other repair options.
Right, so today is the 15th day dince the proceedure, and what have l felt? Well, l had a small bit of movement that l didn’t have prior to the proceedure. The surgeon gave me a small exercise and to perform it within five days of the proceedure. All it was – was to elevate the arm in three different locations. I did so and each one was painful, sure l had that same movement, but l have never NOT had that movement l was simply advised to NOT move my arm there!
So technically all l was performing was the exercise l was instructed to trial. However from the day after that small exercise, that test, my pain increased and increased and here we are on day 15 and l am in agony again. More than before and now the Tramadols are not even touching the side! Tomorrow l must ring the surgery and speak to my doctor and request a higher dosage.
In the repair side of things it was twin layered, immediate relief stage one was 10 days in, failing that stage two was 21 days in. So maybe l am being a pessimist and perhaps in the next 6-7 days l am going to miraculously improve?
But my next appointment with the surgeon is six weeks from the proceedure! Shitty bang bang that’s going to be another long six weeks l feel!
I don’t, but sometimes what l do know is that optimism should not be confused with foolishness! All l have the feeling of now is that l am such a fool, just in three times the pain level l was in before the injective surgery!