More Than 9 Lives of Luck!
“A cat has nine lives. For three he plays, for three he strays and for the last three he stays.”
Earlier this morning, l reblogged a post from Li of Tao Talk Oh Prompt Me Do!! Our World Today where upon she said that of all the skills she would surely love and appreciate the most – was and is the ability to be more mechanically minded. i could totally relate to her sentiments, l would love to be practical – but l am not – l am however accidental, clumsy and klutz like. I mean, sheesh l am a guy that can get lost simply walking around a corner. Disaster and friction is drawn to me like l am a magnet! I am the hot babe of misfortune!
Over the years l have often sat down and pondered deeply on my bad luck or is it good luck, am l cursed or jinxed, is it really all down to the spectrum presence of Asperger’s that makes me a bit prone to a natural disposition of bungles, bumbles and ungainly awkwardness?
I mean l can at times be horribly inappropriate but that’s not specifically incompetent is it? I can be crude, lewd and rude, uncouth, graceless, without tact, cumbersome and lumpish, oafish, letf-handed, heavy handed, sometimes a little bit unpolished, ham fisted and all thumbs – but are these the signs of someone who is incredibly and remarkably ponderous? i don’t deny that l can be seen, read and heard as insensitive, tactless and inelegant, a bit rough around the edges, at times lacking in grace – but l don’t think these are specifically tied in with accidental, so that maybe more a case of not always thinking.
I am dreadfully guilty of not thinking of others at times, and can come across as quite brutish in some of my remarks, hence l have heard the lack of empathy thrown at me over the years. but this isn’t so much a case of accidental more along the lines of boorishly clumsy and l think THAT is probably the Asperger’s.
Perhaps unbeknownst to me l have wild imps or pixies running amok in my brain, scuttling down my neck and playing havoc with my limbs – maybe l am cursed by djinn or a supernatural genie jinn is present or maybe l am haunted and this is all the work of something even stranger?
And yet, despite all the bad luck that befalls to me, some how l still land on my feet? Is that good fortune, or good luck … am l indeed a feline? Am l bewitched or enchanted? Charmed or damned? Broken, burdened or even afflicted? Is there going to come a time when my life will not be so extraordinarly stricken and pained by hexes?
I am unsure which genre to list this tale under, does it fall into miscellaneous topics, stories and tales, spookies be known or something more sinister?
You see folks, from a very young age, l have had things happen to me, that apparently would kill other folks and yet here l am? I do wonder if perhaps l am more than a survivor, but l am merely an existing spectre? I have more than once asked the question of those to whom would listen, why am l still here? When it is so blatantly obvious that l have used up more than a mere handful of nine lives, why am l here?
I mean it’s an honest question l feel to ask of the powers to be whoever those powers to be are and of course each person or body of people have and has a different interpretation of what the powers to be are or is.
No one has answered my question or indeed any of my questions to date … it is not hard to answer l feel – l just want to know why l am still in one piece and not six foot under or a reduced to a pile of ash and scattered to the many winds? i mean there is a point to life, and l know we have to find it, develop it, create and nurture to it – but what happens when you wonder should you be here in the first place having survived more encounters that you might find in a loaf of thinly sliced bread?
Am l supposed to be this pained today, this broken? Was l supposed to be broken like l was when l left home? So, if l have got to this point in my life in one piece well of sorts then why am l here, if l am such a natural walking talking disaster?
You can answer that question about your own existence should you so wish or wait for part 2 – soon!