Borderline Crossing – Truly Inspired #18

11cm3kTruly Inspired Series

Monhegan Island ME1

Places of True Inspiration for me 1 :  American Southwest

1] Blog Name

I actually have three blogs. My main blog is BORDERLINE CROSSING, a behind-the-scenes look at the clock ticking.

In 2017 I fully embraced “me”, etching “my” name in concrete, having gone through nine years of evolution. BORDERLINE CROSSING represents my journey into myself. I spend 99% of my blogging time there.

My other blogs are strictly poetry driven without much of my personality breaking through. Eventually I envision MY NOTEBOOK and WAYWARD BE as chapbooks. I contemplate doing this in between moving, developing a career after being a mom for 28 years, and working on my mental health. My mind is currently sending out busy signals, as I am creating new stuff for BORDERLINE CROSSING, and recently joining Instagram. So whether the chapbooks happen, remains to be seen.

2] Genre/Blog Style

My blogs are primarily driven by poetry, photography and paintings. BORDERLINE CROSSING dabbles in philosophical musings and opinions related to personal mental health issues of MDD (major depressive disorder with psychosis), GAD (generalized anxiety), along with a myriad of phobias. Tropophobia, fear of moving. Methathesiophobia, fear of change or changing. Agoraphobia, avoiding places that might make you panic. My mental health is mostly under control except in times of stress. All this occurs, while grappling with my brother’s suicide.

3] Blog Age

BORDERLINE CROSSING is nine years old and has had various names as well as style. A lot of my earlier stuff, 2009, until I started posting poetry, has been deleted. MY NOTEBOOK made a debut post WATERCOLOR TEARS June 28, 2016, out of frustration with my main blog. WAYWARD BE made its debut post STANDING TALL March 27, 2017. Both of those blogs have been quiet for some time because I have never felt more confident with BORDERLINE CROSSING than today. Except for maybe tomorrow. 

3] At what age did you start to write and what was your motivation for doing so?

My personality is introverted (INFP) and I am exclusively known through the arts, whether dancing, acting, painting or writing. It was the only way I could be heard or seen as a child and most likely will remain that way forever. My Mom encouraged me to write from an early age, which I rebelled against. I really did not want to write, I wanted to dance, which she discouraged me from doing. This is the sorrow behind my mental health issues and why so much of my stuff veers toward negativity. I am working hard towards positivity.

 Monhegan Island ME2

Places of True Inspiration for me 2 : Monhegan Island ME

4] Does writing/creativity come naturally to you or do you struggle to invent something inspirational each day/week/month?

There is definitely a natural inclination to express myself through the arts. According to the INFP personality gurus, I am a poet. My definition of poetry is a mix of spirituality and common sense “Church is poetry. Poetry is life. A life well lived.” So even if I am not actively participating with the arts, breathing and loving others is poetry to me.

5] How prolific are you in your craft?

Today, I believe I am rather prolific. I was dead for about 23 years. During that time I burned all my journals and my Mom actually destroyed all my art work from school. March 1, 2008 was a turning point. I was catatonic for seven months until I started therapy October 7, 2008. It was then I was raised from the dead. My therapist calls me a Phoenix and I credit him for breathing life back into my heart and mind. We still talk. He will remain in my life forever.

6] Are your writings displayed elsewhere or just WordPress?

If so where? I just recently started posting on Instagram. I am too shy to have my writings published by others. And honestly, are they good enough? I just see everyone better than me.

Santa Fe, NM

Places of True Inspiration for me 3 : Santa Fe, NM

7] Do you ever suffer from writers/creators block? How do you combat it?

I actually would welcome a chance not to create… some days when I feel all these thoughts are burdening me, I question myself. Then I remember how this second life of creating started and rally against my suicidal thoughts.

8] What is your preferred creative form?

DANCE!!!!! Everything else is just a substitute.

9] How do you arrive at your decision to write/create/invent about what you have chosen as a subject for the piece/s?

Seriously, no clue. It all happens magically. And explainable as the un/subconscious. A huge fan of Jung! And Van Gogh! Sylvia Plath and Anne Sexton. Virginia Woolf. Recently discovered E.e.cummings and Robert Lowell. Living artists are the best as they can be seen and felt in real time, if given the opportunity. I started attending workshops and readings so I can be present with others who share the joy of creating.

10] Do you need an ambience to work with, such as music, quiet, scented candles, yoga, exercise, reading, film or something else?

Most ideas come from the un/subconscious parts of me. Out of the blue, words stream from my mind and when I actually stop and listen, through my hands. I need walks in the woods, leaning against my favourite oak tree, overlooking a serene lake, where the bald eagles play, all set out, inviting me with a mossy carpet of fairy-tale grass. I feel most welcome on that hill. It is a sweet embrace I rarely feel any more. I yearn for that place.

Indian Rocks Beach FL

Places of True Inspiration for me 4 : Indian Rocks Beach FL

11] What helps you to create your content?

I need people scratching the chalkboard to get me thinking. Dreams. Nightmares. Just being and allowing myself to feel.

12] Is your content driven by your journey or your story, or by the journeys and stories of others?

BORDERLINE CROSSING is all about me. Mostly. On occasion I feel guilty looking inward. My passion really is all about others, which you may find hard to believe, reading my posts.

13] Are there any specific things which enable your creative juices to flow more steadily?

Visits to art museums and moments of stress free lounging. I recently invited the abstract into my life. It draws me out as never expected. I had no idea abstract existed within me. I wholeheartedly embrace this new vision.

14] How long from start to finish would/can your content take you to complete?

Most of my poems are shorter and take about 10 minutes. Paintings take longer. I tend to paint and paint and paint over. I am more apt to change a painting than a poem. Poems seem too concrete for me. I am afraid to look or read them over again to do any editing. I am afraid of what I was thinking and sometimes embarrassed I even wrote something down and posted on my blog. But I keep it on display. Maybe somebody will read what I wrote.

15] Are you pleased with your finished pieces? How do you feel when you receive acknowledgement from another?

I do love comments. It is interesting to see how others interpret what I wrote. It is nice to know I am actually making sense. Some find my stuff confusing, ambiguous, enigmatic. Probably because I am confusing, ambiguous and enigmatic.

Finally, what advice would you award writers or creators looking to express themselves and to then display their works to the world?

I am an encourager by nature and I would hope everyone has the confidence to speak to the world through their artistic expression. I have a great friend with a blog who has not posted a single poem. I have read them. They are good. Better than mine. But fear keeps her from moving. I was once like her. I am often like her. I fear others. But I also can dissociate myself from my works enough to let them shine on their own. I hope someday she is able to reach that point or she will forever be a modern day Emily Dickinson.

This is my favourite poem written, POINT OF CONVERGENCE and embraces who I am. The dancing poet.

My thanks to Jeanne, for allowing us into her world of inspiration and life journey and story and sharing moments with us that motivate her further, however to quote her directly ”Actually wherever I am, is inspiring.” There is an intrinsic beauty to creating, to crafting your art, to penning your thoughts, but the true beauty, the inner beauty is simply allowing you to be true to heart.

1x8ulo

 

If any would like to participate in the Truly Inspired series – please drop me an email at aguycalledbloke63@gmail.com and l will gladly write you up and share your inspirations. I would genuinely love to hear from more of you, so don’t be shy.

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  1. 💙🕊thank you Rory for graciously sharing as this is a giant step in personal growth. I hope others will be as brave, as I have discovered so many poets through your blog. Cheers 🍻 J🕊💙

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